3CardMay: Day 4

day 4

Date: May 4th, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot

Full Moon’s Energy
Queen of Wands – warmth, vibrancy, determination

Ah yes. When I visited The Moon on Saturday, it was indeed very warm in regards to our conversation, but the energy it was giving off was clear for me to see. And it was… determined in it’s agenda as it kept doing whatever it was doing as we were talking. Big and warm and oh so nice.

What Has Grown
VI – The Lovers – union, values agreement, choices

This is not so much about relationships but rather how I think and view facts and situations. I was given a lot of information last month about myself, and while it probably wasn’t the exact right time for me to learn all of that, I did learn it and it helped me grow and become more in sync with ideas I’d been having and new topics that I’ll keep learning.

What Stirs In Me
Six of Pentacles – generosity, giving, prosperity

Giving back? I feel like I should be giving back, but to whom and what I don’t know. I’m always willing to help, at work or at home, but I should give more? I’m not quite sure about this card.

Spread-A-Day: Day 12

Date: February 12, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Created by: ragabashwitch

Day 12

What is preventing me from winning?
XIII – Death – change, transformation, transition

I am scared of how the family dynamic will be after the 28th of this month.  But this family meeting is something that must happen and I’m afraid of what the outcome will be at the end of the day.

How can I get to first place?
Queen of Wands – warmth, vibrancy, determination

I can’t point fingers, I need to include everyone when speaking, not just about my dad and I.  I need to show my sisters what it’s been like for me without sounding like I’m whining or placing blame.  I feel that it is through this approach that I can effect what winning will be like.

What will winning be like?
Nine of Swords – solitude, anxiety, despair

Damn.  Every time my cards show me something has to do with the outcome of the family meeting, it does not show me something good.  This card is telling me that while I may say all the right things and give all the right examples, in the end I will be left standing by myself.  My sisters will have the knowledge of what I said and went through, hopefully to their understanding, but that won’t make them support me in my decision.  And so I’ll be on my own, left to deal with the repercussions by myself.

Interesting fact #1: Before I shuffled the deck, I looked at the bottom card, just ‘cus I was curious.  And it was VIII – Death.  I only shuffled three times and it became the top card. Say what?!

Interesting fact #2: I looked at the shadow card when I was at the end of the spread and it was the Ace of Pentacles.  So, okay, when everything is all said and done, I’ll be able to pursue just about anything without having to look over my shoulder. There’s… some hope.

tenthousandpennies asked: If you can find the time to do a spread 2 reading for me that’d be really cool 🙂 Thank you.


who am i

Where am I coming from?
XV – The Devil – addiction, enslavement, hopeless

When I meditated on where you were coming from, I saw a swirling vortex made of a thick substance and lightening.  The colors of this whirlpool where the exact blues, greys, and purples in the top half of the card, the portion with the actual devil.  When I focused on how this has impacted your life, I felt detached from this vortex. What I’m getting from this card is that, during a time in your life you had some pretty tight constraints on yourself… around the time of high school, maybe late junior high.  More like your own personal devil literally sitting on your shoulder, because the barriers I’m feeling were of a mental sort. You were very hard on yourself and berated yourself because you kept putting yourself down.  Everyone else is able to do this activity, but you can’t, wanna know why, because you won’t be able to figure it out.  You’ll be sitting there still reading the directions while the janitor is turning off the lights.

This personal beating went on for long enough that you began to believe it, but you never showed it to anyone.  Your mental well-being shrank into a corner, bested by itself.

Who am I?
Queen of Wands – dedicated, engaging, upbeat

Velma from Scooby Doo. Jessie from Team Rocket in Pokemon.  I feel you are smart, not that you weren’t before, but you grew into who you are now.   And who you are is one smart cookie, because as I tried to understand you, Velma sat before me… and then she changed into Jessie.  Smart women who are tech savvy.  I also saw Velma/Jessie sitting in front of three computers with larger than average monitors.  Do you do computer stuff at all? If not, I would suggest looking into programming or website coding.  Quick fingers with a quick mind.

Your past has influenced you into becoming who you are today.  You have learned from it and turned the tables.

Where am I going?
Eight of Pentacles – craftsmanship, patience, “using one’s own hands and body and mind to create”

The image I got, when wondering about your future, showed me hiking along a path with a lot of greenery, some woods off to the side, blue skies… You are on your way to a goal or a project because of a specific skill set.  It’s taken time to build up what you know, but you’ve nurtured it in an almost ritualistic like fashion.  You wanted this skill and you knew it you would have to work hard to master it, and so you read, you learned, you practiced, you understood the intricacies, and then put your own little spin on it.  And that specific, personal skill will be noticed by someone who needs a job done and the way you do things is the way they want it done.

I feel this skill has much to do with the process of delicate precision, steady hands, keen eye.  Much like spiderwebs all perform the same task, yet each one is slightly different because of the spider who wove it.

I feel like color is important here.  In the Queen of Wands, you can see the same colors from The Devil at the bottom of the card.  You have mastered your past and are now making sweet music on top of it… and because of it.  And the green in the Eight of Pentacles is not in the other two cards.  It is something new altogether, something to look forward to.