4:13:2015 b

1) Am I being taken advantage of at work?
X – The Wheel of Fortune

We all get taken advantage of sometime in our life, the thing to remember is that it will end. (so, yes.)

2) Who is taking advantage of me?
Queen of Swords

I am taking advantage of myself?

3a) How are they doing this?
Two of Swords

I am denying myself the obvious truth. I am avoiding what I already know but don’t want to hear.  I don’t like when other people do this, so learning that I am doing it to myself is very disappointing.

3b) What truths am I denying?
Knight of Wands – Seven of Swords

There is someone in my department who, while they have a lot of energy for the job, they are much too over-confident, even cocky.  They know what they want and are willing to get it, even excited that they are finally on their way to achieving this goal, but their attitude is going to get in the way.  And if they keep lying to me and evading the responsibilities of the job, we are going to have a serious problem.

3c) Is this person L?
XVI – The Tower.

Fuck. It is. Better strap myself in for a bumpy ride.

4a) How do I stop them from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Cups

I should create an environment of peace and serenity.  I should create an environment in my department that people want to come to because we’re always having a good time, yet we still work hard.  My coworkers shouldn’t come to work because it’s their job, they should come to work because they like the atmosphere.  I should create and strive to be someone that people can come to for just about anything, because I can put a smile on their face and make them feel good. I should be calm and relaxed.

4b) How can I stop L from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Swords

I can’t really.  I can’t force them to learn about life differently. But if once we have that air of peace and awesomeness, where we always have a good time, and they continues to be deceitful then that will be their downfall. They’ll try to get ahead by being cunning and hurtful, but it won’t get them anywhere.  They’ll question why others are moving forward with their careers and lives when they’ve actually gone backwards.  But they won’t do anything to fix their attitude, and that will be their end.

(I swear the Ten of Cups and the Ten of Swords in this situation say “kill her with kindness”.)

4c) (I forgot what I asked. I didn’t write it down. Maybe something along the lines of, “How can I create this environment of peace and serenity?”)
VII – The Chariot

Triumph over Obstacles. Focus. Establishing an Identity. Self-Confidence. Assuming Authority. “Drive with Unwavering Certainty.”

I need to truly accept my role of shift leader. Since I got it, it’s been a title and nothing more. I never really liked the responsibilities that came with it.  But, to get this great departmental vibe going, I need to wear that title with confidence. People need to see the shift leader before they see the worker.

mrs-tengo-una-bella-vida asked: Hi! Could I have a reading with spread 2? Thank you in advance~! 🙂 Hope you’re having a nice day!

mutant-wolf2 responded: *waves* I’m doing alright, thank you.  Here is your reading!

2:16:15

Where am I coming from?
Knight of Wands – progression toward a goal, passion

I feel like you’ve made a drastic change.  You were headed toward something (though I don’t feel like you necessarily wanted it) but then put on the brakes and went down a different path that’s headed toward something you know you’ll enjoy. And you’ll take the challenges that face you head on; in fact, once you see these challenges it’ll only put a bigger smile on your face because en guard, they just motivate you even more toward your goal! To others, you’ve got spirit, you’ve got spunk, you will rush into this adventure with a lion’s heart. Don’t forget to give yourself little breaks so you can replenish and enjoy the world around you.

Who am I?
XX – Judgement – “the freshness of a new dawn”, a new start, necessity of hard choices

You have been planning, crossing the T’s and dotting the I’s.  Making sure everything is ready for that new horizon. You stand on the precipice, looking forward.  All you need to do now is take that first step toward your new journey.  I’ve moved out of state a couple of times, and the sensation I get when I look at this card is the same feeling from when I had everything packed, everything was ready… now I just need that calendar date to come a little quicker so I can get going.  It was a hard decision, but you made a choice.  And that choice is full of anticipation.  I’m imagining you going to a new place, finding a new place to live, and once you put your bags down in that empty apartment, I get the sensation of a trumpet playing to announce your arrival; very much like the picture in the card.

Where am I going?
XVIII – The Moon – anxieties, unknowns, chasing after fantasy

“The unknown” is what I’m getting from this card.  It’s scary, unpredictable, and you are very unsure about what is going on.  What is the truth?  Who is wearing a mask and who shows their true colors?  Unfortunately, I can’t tell you if you’ll succeed in this new place.  There will come a time when you’ll feel like everything is moving way too fast and you have no control over it.  There’s a lot of information floating around but you can’t grasp what any of it is saying and so you are confused. You came, you’re in the process of seeing.. but have you conquered? What should you do?  What is right, anymore?  Reach out to friends and ask for help, they will be your lifeline.  Even just talking about who-knows-what will ease your heart.

Spread-A-Day: Day 6

Date: February 6, 2015
Deck:
Shadowscapes Tarot
Created By:
 golddintentions

Day 6

This card represents you in the present.
II – The High Priestess – knowledge, learning, intuition (Artemis, Isis)

I am a student in the ways of magic and paganism.  I read, I watch, I ask questions, I learn, I feel.  I am opening myself up.

Jumper Card that landed on the first card position
Four of Cups – self-absorption, one’s own concerns

The High Priestess is also tied to the Goddesses Artemis and Isis (hence the parenthesis).  I have been a follower of Artemis for a little bit now, and while I know Isis has been trying to get my attention, I’ve yet to meet her.  These past couple of days Artemis has been doing everything to let me know I need to visit.  Which is true, I haven’t meditated in a couple of weeks and have been focused on my own needs. Not necessarily a bad thing, but I also haven’t incorporated them into anything I’ve done, either.

Something that is currently draining or replenishing you.
Knight of Wands – energy, passion, adventure

My love of life.  I go into a new found project with a single minded purpose that includes a very annoying amount of energy, because I’m so excited to do it!  I love traveling and exploring new places. I love seeing what’s ahead of me, what’s around the river bend. =D  Mom and I are planning a trip in July to one of my favorite places and road trips are one of my favorite things.  I also love just being with friends and whatever may come of us being together.

Something upcoming to be aware of.
Ten of Wands – misfortune, circumstances beyond human control

I look at this card I think that the birds are pick at her as they fly by her.  This situation with my family feels the same way: I feel they are picking on me, and there’s nothing I can really do until we have this meeting.  And then hopefully everything will fall into whatever place they end up.

Something that you should focus on to help you move forward.
Five of Swords – conflict, tension, loss, defeat

I’m not going to win when it comes to trying to get my sisters to see my side of the story.  I feel the order of the keywords is what’s going to happen.  We will butt heads; the conversation will continue but not without that thick odor of tension; I will realize that there is no hope of them understanding; then I will feel defeated because will be right back to where we started, only this time with our emotions having gone through the wringer.

Date: December 28th, 2014
Deck: Black Cat Tarot
Spread: Wheel of Your Year (slightly modified to add three crossings, cards 19/20 from this spread)

1) Significator. This card represents you as you go into the new year.11-xi-justice

XI – Justice – fairness, truth, law

As I go into the New Year, I am hanging onto what is right and what is wrong, especially what happened during the month of December. I had two talks with two different people and they both were about, to some degree, what I thought was right and what I thought was wrong; about what I did because I wanted to be right, but my actions were wrong; about what I know to be the truth and what form justice should take.

2) January.

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4 of Swords – contemplation, recuperation, rest

I need to stop whatever I’ve been fighting and just relax. The first month should be about me recuperating my mind and emotions. I don’t need to fight-fight-fight all the time, that will just wear me down. I need to stop and get myself together because the battle is not done. I’ve got work to do.

3) February.

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5 of Cups – loss, disappointment, bereavement

I think this is going to be a hard month for me. I have a feeling that I’ll still be battling whatever I’m going through, but I will also have losses that have to do with a father-like figure and someone I regard as a sister. Because in the image I had, they felt like family but were not blood related. They have a sad smile on their faces, turn away from me, and walk towards a bright light. Cliche, I know, but that’s what I saw. And I will be left watching them go.

4) March.

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XII – The Hanged Man – suspension, letting go, sacrifice

I will need to make a significant decision about what happened in the background of February, but I need to hold off until the time is right so that the decision I make can turn into a better outcome. This card may be telling me that I need to sacrifice something close to me to help make the outcome better.

5) April.

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Page of Pentacles – manifestation, financial opportunity, new job

I think the events of the past three months have quieted and died down (aka the fighting is over and we’re all licking our wounds), so now is the time to act on all of those ideas I’ve got running around in my head! With enthusiasm and desire, I can venture into a new hobby or a business venture. Learning, gaining knowledge, attaining wisdom and new skills are what I should be focusing on.

6) May.

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, subconscious mind

I feel this month has much to do with my spirituality. The High Priestess represents Artemis but I do not think she will be the main focus here. She will be by my side helping, definitely, but my sight is on something else. If I take the time to pursue what I want, I will get it. Whatever spiritually “it” is.

7) June.

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Knight of Wands – energy, passion, lust, adventure

This is the month for me to go-go-go! Lots of running around, I feel, being productive toward a physical goal. Taking those leaps and bounds; keep my eyes on the prize.

8) July.

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8 of Wands – speed, action, air travel

The energy and movement from June carries over into July as what I’m working toward is now turing into a real thing that I can touch. Something physical. I know I have some travel plans for July, hopefully they come true!

9) August.

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Queen of Swords – quick thinker, organized, perceptive, independent

Now that what I’ve been building has been made into something I can touch and see and feel, it’s time to get the details together about it. And I need to do it quick. This is the month for me to use my brain instead of my heart.

10) September.

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6 of Wands – public recognition, progress, (victory)

In June and July, I’m running around trying to get this thing into existence. In August, it will be made with the i’s dotted and the t’s crossed. And in September, whatever it is, is going to get the spotlight. I feel I may be attributed to that recognition, but I will be seen as the “man behind the curtain” (hence ‘victory’ is in parenthesis). The real focus will be on the object/idea.

11) October.

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7 of Cups – fantasy, illusion, wishful thinking

Options. I’m going to be given options, a lot of them. And my imagination is going to go into overdrive as I think about each one and what they could all positively bring. I can’t have it all so I need to be clear about what I want exactly and then make informed decisions. It may be that taking the second rate option will turn out to be far better than grabbing onto the first rate opportunity.

12) November.

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6 of Cups – reunion, nostalgia, memories

I feel this card is dealing with my sister or the sister-like relationship from February. We will reconcile and talk about “the good ole days.” Understanding and hugging will happen.

13) December.

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8 of Swords – isolation, self-imposed restriction

This is me ‘punishing’ myself for something. This has nothing to do with any influences from friends or family. This is all me. It may be an action I did that, while it wasn’t the wrong thing to do, I felt that it was terrible, and so I’m locking myself in my room, feeling bad about whatever happened. When in all reality, it’s just me looking at myself too harshly, as everyone else is fine with what I did or don’t even care. Inside my room, I am brooding. Outside my room, no one gives a second thought about it. They just want me to come out and join them.

14) Crossing 1. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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Ace of Cups – love, compassion, overwhelming emotion

I will be giving so much love this year and in return people will be drowning me with their love and compassion. When I say drown, I mean, holy crap, you guys better stop or I’m going to cry. I probably will cry from happiness at least once this year.

15) Crossing 2. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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8 of Cups – escapism, abandonment, withdrawal

I don’t like the keywords. The card tells me that while I may be content with what I have, I want to see what’s beyond the comfort of my home. My little white book says, “Departure. Even in the most stable and comfortable situations there may always be a woodworm of restlessness that obliges us to set out on our travels.” I have a feeling that I’m going to get that itch to travel, to roam, to explore what’s beyond my backdoor. Only question is… will I do it? Will I pack up and go? If I do, will it be temporary, just a quick trip, or am I settling down somewhere? I get the feeling that wherever I go, it’s going to be far. I just don’t know the longevity.

16) Crossing 3. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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VI – The Lovers – love, union, values alignment

I don’t think I’ll be getting into a romantic relationship this year, so far as the cards are telling me, but whomever I do have any kind of relationship with (parent, sibling, friend, etc), we will be growing closer this year. I feel this has to do with friends at work. We will be in sync; unstoppable. But who knows, with Ace of Cups and The Lovers as two of my crossings for next year, maybe I will begin a relationship.

January-February-March: These first three months are going to be hard and I will have to be careful about what I say and do. Contemplation is needed, especially in March. I see the cards, in this order, as a fall-winter-spring metaphoric progression.

April: A new venture or new activity… this may have something to do with what will be starting in June.

May: Much spirituality! Very magic! (Aaaaand Artemis just whacked me over the head because I made that joke.)

June-July-August-September: Busy busy busy! I will see this thing from when it was just a baby thought all the way to presenting itself out into the world. This is going to be interesting. Also, there is a crap ton of positivity and productivity oozing from June and July. Jus’ sayin’.

October-November-December: I dream of better things; I remember better things; I lock myself away because the thing I did was not better. I can see the cards, in order, as a kind of night-dawn-day when looking at the colors.

Majors: 4/16
Cups: 5/16
Swords: 3/16
Wands: 3/16
Pentacles: 1/16

What’s My Life Purpose?

Date: December 9th, 2013
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Spread From: I made it up.

A few days ago I had suddenly been a little obsessed with finding out what my life purpose was, or at least a part of it.  And so I made up this five-card spread.  With a few quick changes in wording, I think it could also be a What Do I Need To Work On? spread.

1) What is my purpose for this lifetime?

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6 of Wands (reversed) – egotism

I feel this can also mean pride or wanting to be center of attention. Over the years I have learned that I can be quite prideful of work I have done or achieved. However, while I feel that others should at least acknowledge what I have done, no one does… because I don’t tell them. The reason I don’t tell people is because I know that what I’ve done is a small little thing that is only important to me… and yet I still want to be highly praised for my good work.

So, my life purpose (or part of it, at least) is to know that it’s okay to take pride in what I’ve done, but to not put my pride before me.

2) How can I achieve that?

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Ace of Cups – love, compassion, creativity

Take any opportunity I can to show people that I love them, to show compassion, and to let my creativity soar when it comes to others and sharing emotions. I need stop closing in on myself and let others see what I can offer in regards to loving them, especially if peace can flow.

3) What can I do to be one step closer to my life purpose?

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5 of Cups (reversed) – moving on, acceptance, forgiveness

Okay, this card has come up a few times during tarot readings for myself, and I think I know what it’s about on the small scale and the big picture of my life.

When I see this card it reminds me of when I was mourning the end of relationship earlier this year. I see myself curled up and crying because of the sudden loss of happiness and joy… and I’m still feeling the effects from it. They emotions aren’t as sharp as they used to be but I know why they were caused. I need to accept what happened and the reasons behind it.

In general, I need to understand that I’m going to get hurt. From the big life changes to the little words that people say that sting. I need to accept that these things happen and move on.

4) What is blocking me from achieving my life purpose?

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Knight of Wands (reversed) – haste, scattered energy, frustration

I am trying to achieve too much. I want to learn everything I can about my spirituality, my paganism, Artemis, am I meditating right?, am I seeing Artemis the same way everyone else does?, am I the only one who believes this?, crocheting, reading, printing everything out from my computer… I want to compete ALL OF THE THINGS!!!

But I can’t, because I’m only human. So when I want to do something but for some reason I can’t, I can get frustrated that I’m not advancing on this project like I wanted to be.

5) How can I overcome this blockage?

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8 of Wands – speed, action, movement

I need to stop being so scatter brained and just focus on one or two things. I have all of this energy and ideas that, if I continued to want to do everything, then nothing is going to get done. But if I use channel this energy into a couple of things, then progress will come all the more swiftly.