Date: February 10, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: siobhanwaters
The part of yourself that you hide.
Two of Wands – personal power, authority, courage
I have it in me to be that independent, composed person. I can walk with confidence, exude self-esteem. I can be me to the fullest.
Why do you hide part of yourself? (subconscious issues)
Ten of Wands – responsibility, being held accountable, doing things the hard way
I hide that awesome person because I feel that I must earn my independence, I must be rewarded with confidence. Growing up, I was never told words of affirmation that would have increased my confidence or self-esteem. I am already an independent and composed person, but only because I don’t know how to be any other way so it’s very rigid. I also feel that, while I like working hard, I like seeing my work progress, I fear that that is all I know. I measure my growth by tangible progress. By working hard.
The good things your hidden self can bring you.
Ace of Cups – love, compassion, emotions
I will love with more of my heart. I can extend my compassion to people, not just animals. I will feel and embrace deeply more of my emotions. I won’t have to be so composed all the time.
How to be whole again.
I – The Magician – originality, creativity, willpower
I need to let go this image of being the “hard worker,” of being the “good daughter.” I need to embrace myself. All of my quirks and all of my passions. I still worry about not fitting in, even at work where I am shift leader, people come to me for help, I am very knowledgable in what I do. I am studious, I like words, and strange facts that no one need know except for the fact that it’s interesting. I read whatever I can get my hands on… And I practice magic. I have spoken to the Goddess Artemis. I feel the energies in crystals as if they were people. I see more in the sky than just clouds.
I am me. And I need to remember that.
Oh man, this spread almost made me cry because I had forgotten and buried deep down who I’ve wanted to be. I’m glad I got a reminder.