4:18:2015 b

(based off of this spread, with an added card trying to bridge the first two)

What does my soul want?
XIII – Death

What does my ego want?
Nine of Swords

How can I compromise and achieve both?
Seven of Wands

My soul wants to break free. She is tired of the trivial, the mundane, the things we do over and over again that we believe will have us accomplish something when really they trap up.  My ego is filled with doubt and inner demons and she doesn’t want to think; she just wants to go with the crowd. But her fear is causing her to seize up. Unfortunately, there is no way for a compromise. There will be times where I will feel like I have broken my chains and gotten away from the redundancy of it all, but there will also be times where I follow the mob mentality and want to just be one among the masses.

That’s life.

Spread-A-Day: Day 27

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: blithescoven

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The Head: Represents your spirit guide. If you have not met them it can hold insight into what form they might appear in.

Nine of Swords

The keywords for this card are of no use to me, it is the imagery in the card that draws my eye. My spirit guide is a bird. Most of the time (mainly in spring, summer, and fall) when I go to meet my guide, he is up the air, circling, waiting for me. When he comes down to me he always sits on my left side. When he takes me somewhere, he and I become one and the same. I use his wings to hold me aloft while I also grasp his shoulders tight so as not to fall.

The Hand: What they hold highly.This card represents the qualities and attributes your guide considers of great importance at this time.

Seven of Wands – taking a stand, “…odds can be overcome by faith and courage”

The family meeting was today, and it went as I expected. I felt that I alone had to defend myself. Though a few family members may be more accepting of my decision than others (they accept my decision, but they don’t like it), they never said that they understood where I was coming from, that it must have been hard to deal with this, especially from a parental figure. They listened, like they said they would, but they never truly understood what I was saying. I had to defend myself. I had to stand up to my family and say no. It almost broke me, good lord did I almost give in to what they wanted, but I knew what I wanted and the peace it would give me. I don’t think I’ll be able to muster up that kind of courage any time soon.

My guide is telling me, because I haven’t visited him yet, that he knows how hard it was for me. Defending my ground and pushing for what I wanted was not easy.

The Fist: What they disregard.An issue you may be paying too much mind to, or something your spirit guide wants you to ignore.

Eight of Pentacles – application of intellect and skill, attentive to details

There is someone in my life whom I should not put so much energy into right now. They have taken their academic thought process and used it during the meeting. They were way too focused on details that didn’t really matter, that only made the meeting more intense, that only asked more questions than gave answers. While this skill is a good one to have in the work place, in the situation I’m in, it’ll be the death of you. A more sympathetic and emotional approach was the best way to go about it, but because this was something that needed to be “fixed”, then a sharp intellect is the way to go.

The Heart: What is inside you.A hidden strength your spirit guide applauds, and wants you to focus on fostering at this time. If reversed this can indicate a festering issue your guide is concerned may be harming you.

Five of Wands – conflict, “uphill struggle of living obstacles”

I know what I want and I know how to get it. But I also want to make my family happy, but to make my family happy means that I need to give up what I want. Every single person in my family is pushing me to do something I don’t want or need. I’ve been struggling to stay on top and to defend myself, but it’s so goddamned hard and I’ve been putting so much energy into keeping my feet down and saying no that it’s going to take a little bit for this thinking to subside. I’m so ready for a family member to say an off comment that will get me going that I’m defensive all the time.

My guide is showing this to me and also letting me know that it’s okay to let go of this thinking. The meeting is over with, what’s done is done. Now we just need Time to do its thing.

The Heels: A last word.Any last pressing messages or warnings your spirit guide may have for you.
Ace of Pentacles – “the possibility of prosperity, abundance, and security”

My guide is telling that now is the time for me to plant any seeds that I may want to see grow. Conflict is over, I can focus on other things now. If I put in the right amount of effort in certain areas of my life, everything will flourish.

I loved this spread.  I already know my spirit guide, but the peace I felt when reading this one was… wonderful.

Spread-A-Day: Day 24

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: tarotbythunderwolf

day 24

So, I’m not really keen on the whole ‘fetish’ thing, so I decided to ask about what my mom likes in regards to me.

Mom’s favorite things.
Page of Cups – sentimental, true romantic at heart

Mom likes the idea of being wooed. She wants that knight is shining armor on that sturdy stead. She is a young girl at heart, who sits in the windowsill, rests her head in her hand, and sighs deeply for the romance that comes in fairy tales.

Things she’d enjoy with me.
Seven of Wands – taking a stand, defending what you believe in

This is not about conflict, this is about conversation. She enjoys talking to me about the wonders of the world, why the world is the way it is. Injustice of other people. The hope from those who should have none, and so give to others.

Things I’d enjoy with her.
Two of Wands – influence, courage, “Now is the time to be bold”

I love looking into the future with her. Planning what I’m going to do next in my life, seeing what’s coming up on her calendar. I love knowing what each of us are going to do.

Spread-A-Day: Day 21

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: tarot-py

day 21

Seven of Wands –

taking a stand
defending what you believe in
faith and courage

Where is my opportunity for growth?
Four of Wands –

continue with the work

Where do I experience abundance?
Page of Swords –

agile and analytical mind

How can I rest and take better care of myself?
King of Wands –

a source of inspiration
“bears his mantle of authority with ease”
“striking out upon new risky paths”

What must I learn to let go of?
King of Swords –

“blend of art and science”

I don’t know about you, but I am loving the color coordination in this spread! Yellows on the left, blues on the right. Even the significator card in the middle is like that.