4:13:2015 b

1) Am I being taken advantage of at work?
X – The Wheel of Fortune

We all get taken advantage of sometime in our life, the thing to remember is that it will end. (so, yes.)

2) Who is taking advantage of me?
Queen of Swords

I am taking advantage of myself?

3a) How are they doing this?
Two of Swords

I am denying myself the obvious truth. I am avoiding what I already know but don’t want to hear.  I don’t like when other people do this, so learning that I am doing it to myself is very disappointing.

3b) What truths am I denying?
Knight of Wands – Seven of Swords

There is someone in my department who, while they have a lot of energy for the job, they are much too over-confident, even cocky.  They know what they want and are willing to get it, even excited that they are finally on their way to achieving this goal, but their attitude is going to get in the way.  And if they keep lying to me and evading the responsibilities of the job, we are going to have a serious problem.

3c) Is this person L?
XVI – The Tower.

Fuck. It is. Better strap myself in for a bumpy ride.

4a) How do I stop them from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Cups

I should create an environment of peace and serenity.  I should create an environment in my department that people want to come to because we’re always having a good time, yet we still work hard.  My coworkers shouldn’t come to work because it’s their job, they should come to work because they like the atmosphere.  I should create and strive to be someone that people can come to for just about anything, because I can put a smile on their face and make them feel good. I should be calm and relaxed.

4b) How can I stop L from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Swords

I can’t really.  I can’t force them to learn about life differently. But if once we have that air of peace and awesomeness, where we always have a good time, and they continues to be deceitful then that will be their downfall. They’ll try to get ahead by being cunning and hurtful, but it won’t get them anywhere.  They’ll question why others are moving forward with their careers and lives when they’ve actually gone backwards.  But they won’t do anything to fix their attitude, and that will be their end.

(I swear the Ten of Cups and the Ten of Swords in this situation say “kill her with kindness”.)

4c) (I forgot what I asked. I didn’t write it down. Maybe something along the lines of, “How can I create this environment of peace and serenity?”)
VII – The Chariot

Triumph over Obstacles. Focus. Establishing an Identity. Self-Confidence. Assuming Authority. “Drive with Unwavering Certainty.”

I need to truly accept my role of shift leader. Since I got it, it’s been a title and nothing more. I never really liked the responsibilities that came with it.  But, to get this great departmental vibe going, I need to wear that title with confidence. People need to see the shift leader before they see the worker.

Spread-A-Day: Day 18

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: godfather-of-the-sea

Day 18

Inhale – What I need to take in.
Page of Cups –

“longs for the time and space to simply breathe”
listen to the still voice
believe in the impossible

Hold – What I need to hold on to.
Ten of Swords –

burdens to bear
the end of delusions
sometimes circumstances are beyond human control

Exhale – What I need to let go of.
Ace of Pentacles –

the promise of wealth
reaping the rewards of hard work