3CardMay: Day 10

Date: May 10th, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

The Week Ahead…
1st Third
Seven of Swords – escape responsibility, deception, untrustworthy

The first couple of days I’m going to notice an air of negativity at work. I’ll see the little things people aren’t doing, though they should be. I don’t know if I will act on what I see.

2nd Third
King of Swords – authority, intellectual power, leader

I feel I will be using my title more in during this part of the week, but in a calm and precise manner. One with a lot of thought behind my actions.

3rd Third
Four of Pentacles – control, stability, possessions

Something is going to turn out of whack for me and I will not like the feeling of not being in control. I like knowing where things are going to happen and when they will happen. I’m going to cling to my physical things as a way to keep myself standing.

4:13:2015 b

1) Am I being taken advantage of at work?
X – The Wheel of Fortune

We all get taken advantage of sometime in our life, the thing to remember is that it will end. (so, yes.)

2) Who is taking advantage of me?
Queen of Swords

I am taking advantage of myself?

3a) How are they doing this?
Two of Swords

I am denying myself the obvious truth. I am avoiding what I already know but don’t want to hear.  I don’t like when other people do this, so learning that I am doing it to myself is very disappointing.

3b) What truths am I denying?
Knight of Wands – Seven of Swords

There is someone in my department who, while they have a lot of energy for the job, they are much too over-confident, even cocky.  They know what they want and are willing to get it, even excited that they are finally on their way to achieving this goal, but their attitude is going to get in the way.  And if they keep lying to me and evading the responsibilities of the job, we are going to have a serious problem.

3c) Is this person L?
XVI – The Tower.

Fuck. It is. Better strap myself in for a bumpy ride.

4a) How do I stop them from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Cups

I should create an environment of peace and serenity.  I should create an environment in my department that people want to come to because we’re always having a good time, yet we still work hard.  My coworkers shouldn’t come to work because it’s their job, they should come to work because they like the atmosphere.  I should create and strive to be someone that people can come to for just about anything, because I can put a smile on their face and make them feel good. I should be calm and relaxed.

4b) How can I stop L from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Swords

I can’t really.  I can’t force them to learn about life differently. But if once we have that air of peace and awesomeness, where we always have a good time, and they continues to be deceitful then that will be their downfall. They’ll try to get ahead by being cunning and hurtful, but it won’t get them anywhere.  They’ll question why others are moving forward with their careers and lives when they’ve actually gone backwards.  But they won’t do anything to fix their attitude, and that will be their end.

(I swear the Ten of Cups and the Ten of Swords in this situation say “kill her with kindness”.)

4c) (I forgot what I asked. I didn’t write it down. Maybe something along the lines of, “How can I create this environment of peace and serenity?”)
VII – The Chariot

Triumph over Obstacles. Focus. Establishing an Identity. Self-Confidence. Assuming Authority. “Drive with Unwavering Certainty.”

I need to truly accept my role of shift leader. Since I got it, it’s been a title and nothing more. I never really liked the responsibilities that came with it.  But, to get this great departmental vibe going, I need to wear that title with confidence. People need to see the shift leader before they see the worker.

Spread-A-Day: Day 23

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: kaylaincarnate

day 23

The Peach: This card represents the cause (person/environment/etc) of any manipulations happening to you.
Seven of Swords – attempt to escape responsibility, untrustworthy

Whenever I have asked my dad to explain why he treats me the way he does he never has an answer. Not even a good answer, just no answer at all. It is because of this I feel I cannot trust him with even the most basic of information about my life. With the meeting with my sisters, while it was probably true that they were there to listen to me, there came a time where it felt like I shouldn’t fault him because he does this to everyone, so I should just basically ignore everything I’ve felt.

The Song: This is the message the manipulators in your life are trying to convince you of.
X – The Wheel of Fortune

They were trying to tell me that life goes on, my dad is changing, he’s learning. While that may be true, there is a relationship here that needs to end so I can begin to be happy. It just sucks that it happens to be a relationship with my dad.

The Dancers: This is the toxic elements in your life surrounding you.
Seven of Pentacles

There are two sides to every story. There’s what my dad says and knows, and there’s what I say and know. It’s unfortunate that for me to even possibly think of rekindling a relationship with my dad I need to know why he did what he did. But I’ve tried talking to him and it ends up with empty words. So which do I pick? What I already know in my basket? Or what looks pretty on the outside?

Breaking Away: This card is how to deal with and react to the other three cards.
XIV – Temperance – harmony, healing, self-restraint

I need to walk away from this situation for a while, find some peace for myself and within myself. I probably shouldn’t say too much to friends at work because it loses its value.