3CardMay: Day 1

day 1

Date: May 1st, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

What cleanses me?
II – The High Priestess

This card is all about spirituality to me. Wisdom, knowledge, learning, intuition. These are all things I know will help me to further my path.

XVIII – The Moon

This past winter was a roller coaster of emotion, mostly dealing with my fears, my anxieties, and disorientation of what the heck was going on.

8 of Pentacles

I know this card means hard work with a just outcome, and so I think about my work. “A call…a higher understanding.” This makes me think about the position that just opened up, where I’d taking care of the animals but being the one who actually administers the medications. Hmm…

Spread-A-Day: Day 27

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: blithescoven

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The Head: Represents your spirit guide. If you have not met them it can hold insight into what form they might appear in.

Nine of Swords

The keywords for this card are of no use to me, it is the imagery in the card that draws my eye. My spirit guide is a bird. Most of the time (mainly in spring, summer, and fall) when I go to meet my guide, he is up the air, circling, waiting for me. When he comes down to me he always sits on my left side. When he takes me somewhere, he and I become one and the same. I use his wings to hold me aloft while I also grasp his shoulders tight so as not to fall.

The Hand: What they hold highly.This card represents the qualities and attributes your guide considers of great importance at this time.

Seven of Wands – taking a stand, “…odds can be overcome by faith and courage”

The family meeting was today, and it went as I expected. I felt that I alone had to defend myself. Though a few family members may be more accepting of my decision than others (they accept my decision, but they don’t like it), they never said that they understood where I was coming from, that it must have been hard to deal with this, especially from a parental figure. They listened, like they said they would, but they never truly understood what I was saying. I had to defend myself. I had to stand up to my family and say no. It almost broke me, good lord did I almost give in to what they wanted, but I knew what I wanted and the peace it would give me. I don’t think I’ll be able to muster up that kind of courage any time soon.

My guide is telling me, because I haven’t visited him yet, that he knows how hard it was for me. Defending my ground and pushing for what I wanted was not easy.

The Fist: What they disregard.An issue you may be paying too much mind to, or something your spirit guide wants you to ignore.

Eight of Pentacles – application of intellect and skill, attentive to details

There is someone in my life whom I should not put so much energy into right now. They have taken their academic thought process and used it during the meeting. They were way too focused on details that didn’t really matter, that only made the meeting more intense, that only asked more questions than gave answers. While this skill is a good one to have in the work place, in the situation I’m in, it’ll be the death of you. A more sympathetic and emotional approach was the best way to go about it, but because this was something that needed to be “fixed”, then a sharp intellect is the way to go.

The Heart: What is inside you.A hidden strength your spirit guide applauds, and wants you to focus on fostering at this time. If reversed this can indicate a festering issue your guide is concerned may be harming you.

Five of Wands – conflict, “uphill struggle of living obstacles”

I know what I want and I know how to get it. But I also want to make my family happy, but to make my family happy means that I need to give up what I want. Every single person in my family is pushing me to do something I don’t want or need. I’ve been struggling to stay on top and to defend myself, but it’s so goddamned hard and I’ve been putting so much energy into keeping my feet down and saying no that it’s going to take a little bit for this thinking to subside. I’m so ready for a family member to say an off comment that will get me going that I’m defensive all the time.

My guide is showing this to me and also letting me know that it’s okay to let go of this thinking. The meeting is over with, what’s done is done. Now we just need Time to do its thing.

The Heels: A last word.Any last pressing messages or warnings your spirit guide may have for you.
Ace of Pentacles – “the possibility of prosperity, abundance, and security”

My guide is telling that now is the time for me to plant any seeds that I may want to see grow. Conflict is over, I can focus on other things now. If I put in the right amount of effort in certain areas of my life, everything will flourish.

I loved this spread.  I already know my spirit guide, but the peace I felt when reading this one was… wonderful.

tenthousandpennies asked: If you can find the time to do a spread 2 reading for me that’d be really cool 🙂 Thank you.


who am i

Where am I coming from?
XV – The Devil – addiction, enslavement, hopeless

When I meditated on where you were coming from, I saw a swirling vortex made of a thick substance and lightening.  The colors of this whirlpool where the exact blues, greys, and purples in the top half of the card, the portion with the actual devil.  When I focused on how this has impacted your life, I felt detached from this vortex. What I’m getting from this card is that, during a time in your life you had some pretty tight constraints on yourself… around the time of high school, maybe late junior high.  More like your own personal devil literally sitting on your shoulder, because the barriers I’m feeling were of a mental sort. You were very hard on yourself and berated yourself because you kept putting yourself down.  Everyone else is able to do this activity, but you can’t, wanna know why, because you won’t be able to figure it out.  You’ll be sitting there still reading the directions while the janitor is turning off the lights.

This personal beating went on for long enough that you began to believe it, but you never showed it to anyone.  Your mental well-being shrank into a corner, bested by itself.

Who am I?
Queen of Wands – dedicated, engaging, upbeat

Velma from Scooby Doo. Jessie from Team Rocket in Pokemon.  I feel you are smart, not that you weren’t before, but you grew into who you are now.   And who you are is one smart cookie, because as I tried to understand you, Velma sat before me… and then she changed into Jessie.  Smart women who are tech savvy.  I also saw Velma/Jessie sitting in front of three computers with larger than average monitors.  Do you do computer stuff at all? If not, I would suggest looking into programming or website coding.  Quick fingers with a quick mind.

Your past has influenced you into becoming who you are today.  You have learned from it and turned the tables.

Where am I going?
Eight of Pentacles – craftsmanship, patience, “using one’s own hands and body and mind to create”

The image I got, when wondering about your future, showed me hiking along a path with a lot of greenery, some woods off to the side, blue skies… You are on your way to a goal or a project because of a specific skill set.  It’s taken time to build up what you know, but you’ve nurtured it in an almost ritualistic like fashion.  You wanted this skill and you knew it you would have to work hard to master it, and so you read, you learned, you practiced, you understood the intricacies, and then put your own little spin on it.  And that specific, personal skill will be noticed by someone who needs a job done and the way you do things is the way they want it done.

I feel this skill has much to do with the process of delicate precision, steady hands, keen eye.  Much like spiderwebs all perform the same task, yet each one is slightly different because of the spider who wove it.

I feel like color is important here.  In the Queen of Wands, you can see the same colors from The Devil at the bottom of the card.  You have mastered your past and are now making sweet music on top of it… and because of it.  And the green in the Eight of Pentacles is not in the other two cards.  It is something new altogether, something to look forward to.