Spread-A-Day: Day 20

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: manandcards

Start: What To Change
Six of Swords – passage away from difficulties, a chance to recover, despondency

I need to stop daydreaming about getting away from the major conflict that has infected my brain.  I’m just so done with everything right now and it’s only six days until the actual meeting.  I want to throw in the towel right now, but the cards are telling me not to.

Hope: What Lifts You
Queen of Cups – creative, imagination, heeds her intuition, artistic expression

What I’ve always liked about myself was my creativity and the ways things just naturally seem to come together when it came to my imagination.

Skip: What To Leave
Three of Pentacles – teamwork, functioning together as a unit

Well, I guess I can say good-bye to a well-oiled family meeting.  As much as my sisters want to think that they will be here to listen to what I have to say, they already have a barrier that will not let them.

Jump: What Boosts You
XIX – The Sun – understanding, renewal of life, clarity of vision and purpose

I love adventure. Doesn’t matter what kind.  Oh, we got lost on the way to a friends house? “Adventure time! C’mon grab your friends!…”  Planning a road trip?  “…as we all travel to distant lands!”  That planning ahead for something interesting is what makes me smile.

Ground: Where You Land
I – The Magician – creativity, self-confidence, “grasping the unseen… and harnessing it to become reality”

My imagination, my intuition, my magic.  They lead me to who I am.

Spread-A-Day: Day 2

I didn’t participate in the Spread-A-Day Challenge (though if they do something like this again, I probably will), but I saved the prompts. So you’ll see me do Spread-A-Day posts even if it is long past.

What is blocking my creativity?

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XIX – The Sun (reversed) – temporary depression, lack of success

If this is about the failed relationship from earlier this year, which I would have to say it is because this was also the card I pulled when I did a reading on what happened in the end, then yes.  We work in the same company, though not necessarily the same department (unless I go to their department), so I’ve had to put on a game face whenever I have to work in her area.  When we broke up, of which I was completely against because it was out of the blue, it did honestly feel like the sun had gone away.  I was the saddest I’d ever been in my life.  It was hard and it still feels like the sun isn’t totally out yet.

I pulled a clarifier card just to see, and I got XI – Justice (reversed).

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Which is another card from the reading I did for our relationship.  I felt it totally unfair that this person, whom I thought was as happy as I was in our relationship, would do this.  I felt that this person shouldn’t put all the supposed blame on me when I didn’t even know what was going on.  I was angry and wanted this person to take accountability for their actions.

Yeah, so this tells me that this first position is about how the break up from early June is affecting me creatively.

How can I overcome this obstacle?

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5 of Cups (reversed) – moving on, acceptance, forgiveness

I thought I wasn’t as hung up about the break up as these cards are telling me.  For me to push past this situation that has clearly clouded my view of what is in front of me, I need to accept that it happened, accept that this person actually had the guts to tell me what they told me as a reason to break up.  I need to forgive this person for the heartache they caused me from that day and from all the heartache from the few conversations we’ve had since, which have only caused me pain.  I need to move on from this.

What is the first step I need to regain control?

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, mystery

Oh boy, does this card tell me a lot! First of all, I can get my creativity back with my spirituality.  Enhance my intuition; reach out to the higher powers or deities, and keep that child-like attitude when learning about the unknown.  Also, there is pressure on my third eye at the moment, so I’m doing something right.

“The High Priestess is also known as Persephone, Isis, the Corn Maiden and Artemis.”

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Artemis, you keep showing up!  Fine!  I’ll talk to someone about you!  And Isis, you’re pulling on my attention, too.  I guess I’ve got some more research to do.

“She represents spiritual enlightenment and inner illumination, divine knowledge and wisdom. She has a deep, intuitive understanding of the Universe and uses this knowledge to teach rather than to try to control others.”  “The High Priestess is a very spiritual card.” Yes, I need to keep studying spirituality and what I know.  I need to keep in contact with the Universe during my meditations.

“She is tied to the moon, to femininity, and to inspiration.”  I love the moon.  I really do.  I am so much a child of the moon. (there’s even a moon on the card!)  I’ve been told by the cards that I need to get in touch with my more feminine side, and I guess, somewhere down the road, start teaching or giving advice about tarot, whatever deities I follow, or just spirituality in general.

“On the plus side, you will find that your intuitive powers are increasing and you may be inspired to be creative.”  Well, would you look at that.  I will get my creativity back if I just keep at it with my spiritual studies.