3CardMay: Day 1

day 1

Date: May 1st, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

What cleanses me?
II – The High Priestess

This card is all about spirituality to me. Wisdom, knowledge, learning, intuition. These are all things I know will help me to further my path.

Winter?
XVIII – The Moon

This past winter was a roller coaster of emotion, mostly dealing with my fears, my anxieties, and disorientation of what the heck was going on.

Summer?
8 of Pentacles

I know this card means hard work with a just outcome, and so I think about my work. “A call…a higher understanding.” This makes me think about the position that just opened up, where I’d taking care of the animals but being the one who actually administers the medications. Hmm…

Spread-A-Day: Day 13

Date: February 13th, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Created by: arcanemysteries

Day 13

The problem at present.
XVIII – The Moon – fear, anxiety, insecurities, the unknown

I don’t know what’s going to happen.  I really don’t.  This is one of those times where I wish I had more control over situations to come, but because I’m not the ring leader I’m anxious about what might happen.  I don’t have the schedule of day-to-day events in front of me.  With work, with family, when the month ends… I don’t like not knowing what’s ahead of me.

How this problem came to be.
Nine of Wands – courage, persistence, test of faith

I stood up for myself, over and over again.  I told him that what he thought of me was not who I really was.  I had the courage to tell my dad that I didn’t like the way I was being treated and now we’re having a family meeting because of that.  But I wouldn’t have it any other way.  To cower down when he spoke ill of me would have brought much more pain and confusion in the future.

What is the best possible solution.
Queen of Swords – organized, independent, perceptive

What fact I do have I need to know them well and I need to act on what I know.  No one can help me in this situation but myself.  I need to rely on my inner strength to help keep my head up.

What options or changes must I consider?
VII – The Chariot – control, assertion, will-power

When the day of the family meeting does come, I need to stand my ground (contrary to the picture in the card).  I need to take control of my situation; I need to have strength in my words.  Show my sisters that this is a much more serious position than they think.

The outcome.
IX – The Hermit – soul-searching, being alone

Like all the other cards that deal with the outcome of this family meeting, this one is also telling me that, at the end of the day, I will be alone.  Things will change drastically and I will need to deal with them by myself.

mrs-tengo-una-bella-vida asked: Hi! Could I have a reading with spread 2? Thank you in advance~! 🙂 Hope you’re having a nice day!

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2:16:15

Where am I coming from?
Knight of Wands – progression toward a goal, passion

I feel like you’ve made a drastic change.  You were headed toward something (though I don’t feel like you necessarily wanted it) but then put on the brakes and went down a different path that’s headed toward something you know you’ll enjoy. And you’ll take the challenges that face you head on; in fact, once you see these challenges it’ll only put a bigger smile on your face because en guard, they just motivate you even more toward your goal! To others, you’ve got spirit, you’ve got spunk, you will rush into this adventure with a lion’s heart. Don’t forget to give yourself little breaks so you can replenish and enjoy the world around you.

Who am I?
XX – Judgement – “the freshness of a new dawn”, a new start, necessity of hard choices

You have been planning, crossing the T’s and dotting the I’s.  Making sure everything is ready for that new horizon. You stand on the precipice, looking forward.  All you need to do now is take that first step toward your new journey.  I’ve moved out of state a couple of times, and the sensation I get when I look at this card is the same feeling from when I had everything packed, everything was ready… now I just need that calendar date to come a little quicker so I can get going.  It was a hard decision, but you made a choice.  And that choice is full of anticipation.  I’m imagining you going to a new place, finding a new place to live, and once you put your bags down in that empty apartment, I get the sensation of a trumpet playing to announce your arrival; very much like the picture in the card.

Where am I going?
XVIII – The Moon – anxieties, unknowns, chasing after fantasy

“The unknown” is what I’m getting from this card.  It’s scary, unpredictable, and you are very unsure about what is going on.  What is the truth?  Who is wearing a mask and who shows their true colors?  Unfortunately, I can’t tell you if you’ll succeed in this new place.  There will come a time when you’ll feel like everything is moving way too fast and you have no control over it.  There’s a lot of information floating around but you can’t grasp what any of it is saying and so you are confused. You came, you’re in the process of seeing.. but have you conquered? What should you do?  What is right, anymore?  Reach out to friends and ask for help, they will be your lifeline.  Even just talking about who-knows-what will ease your heart.

Spread-A-Day: Day 5

Date: February 5, 2015
Deck:
Shadowscapes Tarot
Created By:
 rebellious-wisdom

Day 5

1) The Right Hand – How am I being held back by others?
XVIII – The Moon – believing illusions, distortion

Some are keeping secrets from me, while others are trying to attain a dream they once knew but is now long gone. Both are holding me back because neither is truthful. Once the secrets are revealed, the poison behind them will leave behind so much damage that it will be unrepairable. And the person chasing the dream… will keep grasping at nothing. They are in a fantasy, oblivious to others but themselves. And while I try to call them back, to show them the true beauty of the world, they will keep getting farther away, lost in their own false world.

2) The Left Hand – How am I being held back by myself?
XVI – The Tower – sudden emotion, crisis, “making a clean and utter break from the past”

I keep my emotions at bay because they are too big for me. If I didn’t control what I felt I would be a total wreck every time something happened. Being level-headed and examining my emotions slowly will help me. This situation with my dad and the upcoming family meeting has heightened my perception and convinced me to take it down to DEFCON 3. I am making a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be. To make a clean break from the past is kind of a harsh way of saying that I need to let go of what is not helping me grow. Though I do feel I need to cut ties, I don’t need to be all dramatic about it.

3) The Crown of Thorns – One possible way to get off the cross (getting out of the head game)
0 – The Fool – innocence, new beginnings, unlimited possibilities

I need to quit worrying about what might happen. I need to stop thinking ten steps ahead. I need to let go, forget everything, and just leap. Whatever will happen, will happen. OR… I need to keep going the same direction I’ve been going but retrain my eyes to see things as though I’ve never seen them before. I have the knowledge, I need the new eyes.

4) The Fatal Wound – An obstacle that might stop me in my tracks
Six of Wands – triumph, victory, pride

If I let my pride get in the way of the true path, I will believe that I have won my trials and overcome my barriers. When in reality, that will be far from the truth. I will have just begun my trials, even though I am tired before I see the start line; I won’t even see my barriers until I have tripped over them and fallen down. To be victorious too early in the game hurts more than I’ll know.

5) The Feet – A possible outcome (walking away from the cross)
XI – Justice – harmony, assuming responsibility, full awareness

To walk away from that which is harming me, I need to buckle down and take my fair share of responsibility and blame. I feel that even if I don’t think it’s the fair thing to do, it will be the right thing to do to keep the peace.

Spread-A-Day: Day 3

Date: February 3, 2015
Deck:
Shadowscapes Tarot
Created By:
 innerselfnotes

Day 3

“What does February hold for me?”

First, I had the cards in laid out in a row. Then I put then in a 3×3 grid so I could take a picture of them (because that’s so much more important than figuring them out). But when I placed them in the grid, I found that each row, before I looked up the meanings of the individual cards, had a theme.

Day 3b

Two of Pentacles
keeping everything in motion, flexible, adaptable

I feel a lot of turbulence will be headed my way in February, a little at work but more so at home and with family. I need to keep my chin up as I go through the old song and dance with my sisters regarding my dad. One wrong move, however, and it was all for naught.

Queen of Swords
honesty, inner knowledge, “accurate perceptions of the world around her and for her experiences”

With this situation with my dad I have always been honest to what I have seen and experienced. I’m going to have to stick to my guns when I’m with my sisters because all I have, in regards to their questions, is what I know. I feel there is going to come a moment during this month where I will have to stop and figure out the answer to a hard, personal question. I’m also going to have to be honest with myself.

Ten of Cups
serenity, peace, success

This card is not telling me what is going to happen if the family meetings goes well (though that would be nice); this card is telling what the outcome might be if I choose my steps wisely when meeting my sisters. Keeping my emotions under control, that’s not to say don’t show them, but rather let them out in a constructive manner, will help tremendously. I will need to think before I speak. My words have more power in then than I realize. They are hear to listen to I have to say, so what I say finally has some worth.

If all goes well, then we will end the day, not necessarily with happiness (because this is not a happy meeting), but with a sense of accomplishment. We came together for a purpose and now that we’ve all had our say in the matter, we are granted some peace.

The first three cards are warnings when dealing with my sisters and discussing the situation that has arisen because of my dad. I need to keep my balance by not throwing up my personal, defensive shields. I need to be flexible, but I also need to speak the truth while pleasing everyone. If I do this difficult, tricky dance correctly, we will all come out stronger as a family.

Day 3c

Five of Cups
loss, mourning, regret

In my Wheel of Your Year spread, the Five of Cups was the main theme for February. So I’m not surprised that it showed up when I asked about February. I sometimes see snapshots in my mind during readings, and when contemplating the Five of Cups, I saw an older man with his back toward me and a younger girl in the process of turning away from me. The girl had a sad smile on her face. They both were heading toward a very strong, bright, white light. I have a distinct feeling on who the older man is and the fear that he will die. While the family is preparing for the inevitable end (as his health is failing him in real life), I know it will still be a shock when that phone does ring.

XVIII – The Moon
fears, anxieties, disorientation, experiencing distortion

It is because of this older man dying, of who he represented to me and all that he has done for me, I feel that I will become lost. That disorientation of ‘who’s going to be there now?’ kind of lost. ‘I don’t know what to do’ distortion of life. I also feel that it will be my mother whose fears about this man not being in her life, while are many, will overload her. And her wanting to control everything will become out of control.

Ace of Cups
love, compassion, creativity

I will not have strayed from the path for very long. It is my friends who will help me find my way again. With their love and compassion, their understanding and time, I will travel the road once more. Maybe not as fast as I had been going, but I will be back. And when I get back, my creativity, which will have been stifled during this black time, will keep me up at night, wondering what project I’m going to do next. I will mourn if I need to, but I will also remember the good times I had.

In the Five of Cups, I also saw a younger girl (I also believe I know who it is). I feel that while we will both be going through hard times this month, she will blossom with love and creativity near the end. I will see her smile again. A smile that I had not seen in a very long time.

I don’t know if the cards can forecast a death, but I truly feel that is what I am being told. I know death can also be a metaphor for transitions and changes, but my instinct is not telling me that. There is true sadness. I am encouraged to know that my time being lost will not be long.

Day 3d

XII – The Hanged Man
surrendering, emotional release, giving up control, “a subtle shifting of the state of mind”

In regards to the situation with my dad and the meeting with my sisters, it is advised that I stop holding on so dear to what I know to be THE TRUTH. While it is the truth, for myself, it doesn’t do any good if I also don’t listen to what my sisters have to say. And not just pretend to listen only to go back to THE TRUTH, but really listen. I have my truth, but they also have theirs, and while they may not be saying it outright, it’s between the lines.

Six of Swords
“passage away from difficulties,” regretful but necessary transition

February is going to be particularly hard month for me, so much so that I’m going to want to just throw in the towel and not care any more. Just let someone else handle it. But that’s not meeting the challenge, is it? These events are in my life for a reason, it’s time I shakily face them and learn from them.

Three of Wands
explore, seek out the uncharted, expand your horizons

After I have truly faced what has befallen me, my emotions laid bare, I said what I needed to say and I contemplated what I did not know before, after all of that… am I free to make my own path. Major components in my life will have changed drastically, but I can use them to my advantage if I listen to their lessons and apply them to my life.

These last three cards were, in some shape or form, advice for me for the month of February. They seem to be arranged in a first-then-last format. I am not looking forward for February, but with what I have been given, I can hopefully make it easier.