Spread-A-Day: Day 22

Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Created by: ragabashwitch

day 22

What is one thing about me that everyone can see?
XV – The Devil – caught up in the material realm, overindulgence, feeling hopelessness close in

When I am stressed, I like to make lists or rewrite lists, because that kind of organization helps for me to visualize that there are some things in my life that still have an order. These past few weeks I felt that I was grasping at straws, that I needed some constant thing in my life for me to hold on to.  Once those stressful thoughts came to mind it would debilitate me, sometimes having me curled up like the person at the bottom of the card.

What is one thing about me that is kept hidden from everyone?
Ace of Swords – break-throughs, mental clarity

When I make a decision, done. I’ve done my research, I know what I want. When the time comes for my plans to start, I feel as though I’ve just punched through a wall because everything I’ve wanted as all come to this.

tenthousandpennies asked: If you can find the time to do a spread 2 reading for me that’d be really cool 🙂 Thank you.

mutant-wolf2:

who am i

Where am I coming from?
XV – The Devil – addiction, enslavement, hopeless

When I meditated on where you were coming from, I saw a swirling vortex made of a thick substance and lightening.  The colors of this whirlpool where the exact blues, greys, and purples in the top half of the card, the portion with the actual devil.  When I focused on how this has impacted your life, I felt detached from this vortex. What I’m getting from this card is that, during a time in your life you had some pretty tight constraints on yourself… around the time of high school, maybe late junior high.  More like your own personal devil literally sitting on your shoulder, because the barriers I’m feeling were of a mental sort. You were very hard on yourself and berated yourself because you kept putting yourself down.  Everyone else is able to do this activity, but you can’t, wanna know why, because you won’t be able to figure it out.  You’ll be sitting there still reading the directions while the janitor is turning off the lights.

This personal beating went on for long enough that you began to believe it, but you never showed it to anyone.  Your mental well-being shrank into a corner, bested by itself.

Who am I?
Queen of Wands – dedicated, engaging, upbeat

Velma from Scooby Doo. Jessie from Team Rocket in Pokemon.  I feel you are smart, not that you weren’t before, but you grew into who you are now.   And who you are is one smart cookie, because as I tried to understand you, Velma sat before me… and then she changed into Jessie.  Smart women who are tech savvy.  I also saw Velma/Jessie sitting in front of three computers with larger than average monitors.  Do you do computer stuff at all? If not, I would suggest looking into programming or website coding.  Quick fingers with a quick mind.

Your past has influenced you into becoming who you are today.  You have learned from it and turned the tables.

Where am I going?
Eight of Pentacles – craftsmanship, patience, “using one’s own hands and body and mind to create”

The image I got, when wondering about your future, showed me hiking along a path with a lot of greenery, some woods off to the side, blue skies… You are on your way to a goal or a project because of a specific skill set.  It’s taken time to build up what you know, but you’ve nurtured it in an almost ritualistic like fashion.  You wanted this skill and you knew it you would have to work hard to master it, and so you read, you learned, you practiced, you understood the intricacies, and then put your own little spin on it.  And that specific, personal skill will be noticed by someone who needs a job done and the way you do things is the way they want it done.

I feel this skill has much to do with the process of delicate precision, steady hands, keen eye.  Much like spiderwebs all perform the same task, yet each one is slightly different because of the spider who wove it.

I feel like color is important here.  In the Queen of Wands, you can see the same colors from The Devil at the bottom of the card.  You have mastered your past and are now making sweet music on top of it… and because of it.  And the green in the Eight of Pentacles is not in the other two cards.  It is something new altogether, something to look forward to.

The Divine Spiritual Path Highway by ArcaneMysteries

(sorry for the poor photo qualities, my scanner was being weird)

Where am I spiritually at this moment?

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XIV – Temperance (reversed) – imbalance, lack of long-term vision

I would benefit from seeking partners who will help me toward my spiritual growth.  I don’t necessarily need to attend a group setting; it can be with one person or reading spiritual books.  I need to keep filling up my spiritual well but I can’t do it by myself.  I need to relax and look for others who can help.

Where should I be heading, spiritually?

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Ace of Wands (reversed) – delays, weighed down

I am finding it difficult to clearly define what it is that I want.  I need to focus on what my true passions are; there’s no point in trying to do something if I don’t have a goal in mind or am excited about it.

I want to learn Tarot, as I find I am highly tuned in to my deck, but when the Angel showed up, she kind of put everything on hold because I thought I needed to focus my attention on her.  But I’m not too thrilled about her, and I haven’t been from the start.  I feel I should do my research and take it slow with the Angel but don’t ignore my Tarot, because I feel such creativity from it.  I feel inspiration from my deck, and it encompasses my whole being when I read, which is a wonderful feeling.

What lesson am I here to learn?

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XV – The Devil (reversed) – breaking free, power reclaimed

Okay. Let’s just take a quick look at the upright Devil card.  So here’s the Devil, seductively hiding behind not one, but two masks: the mask over her eyes and her fan.  Her staff has an apple on the end, but the shadow shows the true image: a pitchfork.  And you can kind of see horns in the shadow.  Behind her is a pentagram (please correct me if I’m using the wrong word) that is attached to the wall, shrouded in darkness.  Below her is a pit of fire with an upside down pentagram, also on fire.  The cats in the foreground are transfixed on the figure, precariously balanced on her perch.

The Devil reversed still shows that tempting feline but instead of sitting securely in her position, she now has to fight to stay where she’s at.  Your eyes are drawn to the now-upright pentagram on fire, with the pit illuminating it.  And the pentagram on the wall has turned upside down.

This was the perfect card to draw for this question.  My deck is telling me that if I choose to follow this entity, it will lead me deeper and further away than where I want to be on my spiritual path.  The deeper it gets, the darker it gets.  The darker it gets, the less I know where I am.  If, however, I choose not to follow this entity and instead turn toward that illuminated, neon, ‘exit’ sign, then my spirituality can set me free.  I can break free from temptations by ignoring distractions in disguises and honing in on my Tarot, my guides, and my paganism.  Being true to myself and what I know and love, that is what will help me find my exit from confusion.

And honestly, the first thing I thought when I saw this card was, “What’s the opposite of a devil? An angel.”  I can learn and read all I want about Angels, it will certainly help me in exploring other avenues of information regarding spirituality, but if I were to actively try to communicate and work with this being, then I may start down a path I never wanted to be on.  This doesn’t mean that all Angels are bad or evil, it just means that this is a distraction not wanted.

How will I achieve this?

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Ace of Pentacles (reversed) – lost opportunity, lack of foresight and planning

I don’t need to go on a physical journey, but rather I need to look deeper, beneath the surface, and keep going on my spiritual journey.  I need to talk to people who are also on a spiritual path, be it similar to mine or they are doing their own thing.  I need to get out and learn about people and the way they do things, what they experienced, etc.

I need a little help interpreting the last card, the Ace of Pentacles (reversed).  I understand all the other cards, but the last card just isn’t clicking with me.  Can anyone help me with the Ace of Pentacles (reversed)?  Or am I correct in the meaning and I, personally, am not getting it?