Spread-A-Day: Day 14

Date: February 14, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Created by: arcanemysteries & ragabashwitch

Day 14

What is my relationship like with myself?
Nine of Cups – reward, comfort, happiness

I have a very good relationship with myself.  I try to listen to my body in what it tells me; I know when to stop pushing myself. I have come a long way to get as comfortable as I am in my own skin, but for the most part, I am happy myself.

How can I love myself more?
Knight of Cups – romance, charm, imagination

While I listen very well to my body, I need to do more to show that I care about it. I need to do more for myself.  Make myself smile with that impulse book; let my imagination go wild.

What do others love about me?
XI – Justice – fairness, truth, cause and effect

I have no lies.  I can see the truth quite clearly when someone is telling me what is going on.  I give advice that is helpful to them and will bring them to a better solution.  I also understand the dangers in certain situations.  People come to me because I know what’s going on.

How can I share love with others?
Seven of Cups – fantasy, wishful thinking, choices

I can be serious when I need to be, but I can also show people I care about them by joking with them.  Making them feel at ease.  If they come to me with something that is bothering them, I’ll give my advice, but then I’ll lighten the mood by indulging in their fantasies about whatever is problematic in their lives.  They walk away knowing what to do, but also feeling better about the situation.

Spread-A-Day: Day 5

Date: February 5, 2015
Deck:
Shadowscapes Tarot
Created By:
 rebellious-wisdom

Day 5

1) The Right Hand – How am I being held back by others?
XVIII – The Moon – believing illusions, distortion

Some are keeping secrets from me, while others are trying to attain a dream they once knew but is now long gone. Both are holding me back because neither is truthful. Once the secrets are revealed, the poison behind them will leave behind so much damage that it will be unrepairable. And the person chasing the dream… will keep grasping at nothing. They are in a fantasy, oblivious to others but themselves. And while I try to call them back, to show them the true beauty of the world, they will keep getting farther away, lost in their own false world.

2) The Left Hand – How am I being held back by myself?
XVI – The Tower – sudden emotion, crisis, “making a clean and utter break from the past”

I keep my emotions at bay because they are too big for me. If I didn’t control what I felt I would be a total wreck every time something happened. Being level-headed and examining my emotions slowly will help me. This situation with my dad and the upcoming family meeting has heightened my perception and convinced me to take it down to DEFCON 3. I am making a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be. To make a clean break from the past is kind of a harsh way of saying that I need to let go of what is not helping me grow. Though I do feel I need to cut ties, I don’t need to be all dramatic about it.

3) The Crown of Thorns – One possible way to get off the cross (getting out of the head game)
0 – The Fool – innocence, new beginnings, unlimited possibilities

I need to quit worrying about what might happen. I need to stop thinking ten steps ahead. I need to let go, forget everything, and just leap. Whatever will happen, will happen. OR… I need to keep going the same direction I’ve been going but retrain my eyes to see things as though I’ve never seen them before. I have the knowledge, I need the new eyes.

4) The Fatal Wound – An obstacle that might stop me in my tracks
Six of Wands – triumph, victory, pride

If I let my pride get in the way of the true path, I will believe that I have won my trials and overcome my barriers. When in reality, that will be far from the truth. I will have just begun my trials, even though I am tired before I see the start line; I won’t even see my barriers until I have tripped over them and fallen down. To be victorious too early in the game hurts more than I’ll know.

5) The Feet – A possible outcome (walking away from the cross)
XI – Justice – harmony, assuming responsibility, full awareness

To walk away from that which is harming me, I need to buckle down and take my fair share of responsibility and blame. I feel that even if I don’t think it’s the fair thing to do, it will be the right thing to do to keep the peace.

Date: December 28th, 2014
Deck: Black Cat Tarot
Spread: Wheel of Your Year (slightly modified to add three crossings, cards 19/20 from this spread)

1) Significator. This card represents you as you go into the new year.11-xi-justice

XI – Justice – fairness, truth, law

As I go into the New Year, I am hanging onto what is right and what is wrong, especially what happened during the month of December. I had two talks with two different people and they both were about, to some degree, what I thought was right and what I thought was wrong; about what I did because I wanted to be right, but my actions were wrong; about what I know to be the truth and what form justice should take.

2) January.

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4 of Swords – contemplation, recuperation, rest

I need to stop whatever I’ve been fighting and just relax. The first month should be about me recuperating my mind and emotions. I don’t need to fight-fight-fight all the time, that will just wear me down. I need to stop and get myself together because the battle is not done. I’ve got work to do.

3) February.

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5 of Cups – loss, disappointment, bereavement

I think this is going to be a hard month for me. I have a feeling that I’ll still be battling whatever I’m going through, but I will also have losses that have to do with a father-like figure and someone I regard as a sister. Because in the image I had, they felt like family but were not blood related. They have a sad smile on their faces, turn away from me, and walk towards a bright light. Cliche, I know, but that’s what I saw. And I will be left watching them go.

4) March.

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XII – The Hanged Man – suspension, letting go, sacrifice

I will need to make a significant decision about what happened in the background of February, but I need to hold off until the time is right so that the decision I make can turn into a better outcome. This card may be telling me that I need to sacrifice something close to me to help make the outcome better.

5) April.

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Page of Pentacles – manifestation, financial opportunity, new job

I think the events of the past three months have quieted and died down (aka the fighting is over and we’re all licking our wounds), so now is the time to act on all of those ideas I’ve got running around in my head! With enthusiasm and desire, I can venture into a new hobby or a business venture. Learning, gaining knowledge, attaining wisdom and new skills are what I should be focusing on.

6) May.

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, subconscious mind

I feel this month has much to do with my spirituality. The High Priestess represents Artemis but I do not think she will be the main focus here. She will be by my side helping, definitely, but my sight is on something else. If I take the time to pursue what I want, I will get it. Whatever spiritually “it” is.

7) June.

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Knight of Wands – energy, passion, lust, adventure

This is the month for me to go-go-go! Lots of running around, I feel, being productive toward a physical goal. Taking those leaps and bounds; keep my eyes on the prize.

8) July.

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8 of Wands – speed, action, air travel

The energy and movement from June carries over into July as what I’m working toward is now turing into a real thing that I can touch. Something physical. I know I have some travel plans for July, hopefully they come true!

9) August.

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Queen of Swords – quick thinker, organized, perceptive, independent

Now that what I’ve been building has been made into something I can touch and see and feel, it’s time to get the details together about it. And I need to do it quick. This is the month for me to use my brain instead of my heart.

10) September.

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6 of Wands – public recognition, progress, (victory)

In June and July, I’m running around trying to get this thing into existence. In August, it will be made with the i’s dotted and the t’s crossed. And in September, whatever it is, is going to get the spotlight. I feel I may be attributed to that recognition, but I will be seen as the “man behind the curtain” (hence ‘victory’ is in parenthesis). The real focus will be on the object/idea.

11) October.

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7 of Cups – fantasy, illusion, wishful thinking

Options. I’m going to be given options, a lot of them. And my imagination is going to go into overdrive as I think about each one and what they could all positively bring. I can’t have it all so I need to be clear about what I want exactly and then make informed decisions. It may be that taking the second rate option will turn out to be far better than grabbing onto the first rate opportunity.

12) November.

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6 of Cups – reunion, nostalgia, memories

I feel this card is dealing with my sister or the sister-like relationship from February. We will reconcile and talk about “the good ole days.” Understanding and hugging will happen.

13) December.

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8 of Swords – isolation, self-imposed restriction

This is me ‘punishing’ myself for something. This has nothing to do with any influences from friends or family. This is all me. It may be an action I did that, while it wasn’t the wrong thing to do, I felt that it was terrible, and so I’m locking myself in my room, feeling bad about whatever happened. When in all reality, it’s just me looking at myself too harshly, as everyone else is fine with what I did or don’t even care. Inside my room, I am brooding. Outside my room, no one gives a second thought about it. They just want me to come out and join them.

14) Crossing 1. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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Ace of Cups – love, compassion, overwhelming emotion

I will be giving so much love this year and in return people will be drowning me with their love and compassion. When I say drown, I mean, holy crap, you guys better stop or I’m going to cry. I probably will cry from happiness at least once this year.

15) Crossing 2. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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8 of Cups – escapism, abandonment, withdrawal

I don’t like the keywords. The card tells me that while I may be content with what I have, I want to see what’s beyond the comfort of my home. My little white book says, “Departure. Even in the most stable and comfortable situations there may always be a woodworm of restlessness that obliges us to set out on our travels.” I have a feeling that I’m going to get that itch to travel, to roam, to explore what’s beyond my backdoor. Only question is… will I do it? Will I pack up and go? If I do, will it be temporary, just a quick trip, or am I settling down somewhere? I get the feeling that wherever I go, it’s going to be far. I just don’t know the longevity.

16) Crossing 3. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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VI – The Lovers – love, union, values alignment

I don’t think I’ll be getting into a romantic relationship this year, so far as the cards are telling me, but whomever I do have any kind of relationship with (parent, sibling, friend, etc), we will be growing closer this year. I feel this has to do with friends at work. We will be in sync; unstoppable. But who knows, with Ace of Cups and The Lovers as two of my crossings for next year, maybe I will begin a relationship.

January-February-March: These first three months are going to be hard and I will have to be careful about what I say and do. Contemplation is needed, especially in March. I see the cards, in this order, as a fall-winter-spring metaphoric progression.

April: A new venture or new activity… this may have something to do with what will be starting in June.

May: Much spirituality! Very magic! (Aaaaand Artemis just whacked me over the head because I made that joke.)

June-July-August-September: Busy busy busy! I will see this thing from when it was just a baby thought all the way to presenting itself out into the world. This is going to be interesting. Also, there is a crap ton of positivity and productivity oozing from June and July. Jus’ sayin’.

October-November-December: I dream of better things; I remember better things; I lock myself away because the thing I did was not better. I can see the cards, in order, as a kind of night-dawn-day when looking at the colors.

Majors: 4/16
Cups: 5/16
Swords: 3/16
Wands: 3/16
Pentacles: 1/16

Spread-A-Day: Day 2

I didn’t participate in the Spread-A-Day Challenge (though if they do something like this again, I probably will), but I saved the prompts. So you’ll see me do Spread-A-Day posts even if it is long past.

What is blocking my creativity?

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XIX – The Sun (reversed) – temporary depression, lack of success

If this is about the failed relationship from earlier this year, which I would have to say it is because this was also the card I pulled when I did a reading on what happened in the end, then yes.  We work in the same company, though not necessarily the same department (unless I go to their department), so I’ve had to put on a game face whenever I have to work in her area.  When we broke up, of which I was completely against because it was out of the blue, it did honestly feel like the sun had gone away.  I was the saddest I’d ever been in my life.  It was hard and it still feels like the sun isn’t totally out yet.

I pulled a clarifier card just to see, and I got XI – Justice (reversed).

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Which is another card from the reading I did for our relationship.  I felt it totally unfair that this person, whom I thought was as happy as I was in our relationship, would do this.  I felt that this person shouldn’t put all the supposed blame on me when I didn’t even know what was going on.  I was angry and wanted this person to take accountability for their actions.

Yeah, so this tells me that this first position is about how the break up from early June is affecting me creatively.

How can I overcome this obstacle?

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5 of Cups (reversed) – moving on, acceptance, forgiveness

I thought I wasn’t as hung up about the break up as these cards are telling me.  For me to push past this situation that has clearly clouded my view of what is in front of me, I need to accept that it happened, accept that this person actually had the guts to tell me what they told me as a reason to break up.  I need to forgive this person for the heartache they caused me from that day and from all the heartache from the few conversations we’ve had since, which have only caused me pain.  I need to move on from this.

What is the first step I need to regain control?

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, mystery

Oh boy, does this card tell me a lot! First of all, I can get my creativity back with my spirituality.  Enhance my intuition; reach out to the higher powers or deities, and keep that child-like attitude when learning about the unknown.  Also, there is pressure on my third eye at the moment, so I’m doing something right.

“The High Priestess is also known as Persephone, Isis, the Corn Maiden and Artemis.”

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Artemis, you keep showing up!  Fine!  I’ll talk to someone about you!  And Isis, you’re pulling on my attention, too.  I guess I’ve got some more research to do.

“She represents spiritual enlightenment and inner illumination, divine knowledge and wisdom. She has a deep, intuitive understanding of the Universe and uses this knowledge to teach rather than to try to control others.”  “The High Priestess is a very spiritual card.” Yes, I need to keep studying spirituality and what I know.  I need to keep in contact with the Universe during my meditations.

“She is tied to the moon, to femininity, and to inspiration.”  I love the moon.  I really do.  I am so much a child of the moon. (there’s even a moon on the card!)  I’ve been told by the cards that I need to get in touch with my more feminine side, and I guess, somewhere down the road, start teaching or giving advice about tarot, whatever deities I follow, or just spirituality in general.

“On the plus side, you will find that your intuitive powers are increasing and you may be inspired to be creative.”  Well, would you look at that.  I will get my creativity back if I just keep at it with my spiritual studies.