4:13:2015 b

1) Am I being taken advantage of at work?
X – The Wheel of Fortune

We all get taken advantage of sometime in our life, the thing to remember is that it will end. (so, yes.)

2) Who is taking advantage of me?
Queen of Swords

I am taking advantage of myself?

3a) How are they doing this?
Two of Swords

I am denying myself the obvious truth. I am avoiding what I already know but don’t want to hear.  I don’t like when other people do this, so learning that I am doing it to myself is very disappointing.

3b) What truths am I denying?
Knight of Wands – Seven of Swords

There is someone in my department who, while they have a lot of energy for the job, they are much too over-confident, even cocky.  They know what they want and are willing to get it, even excited that they are finally on their way to achieving this goal, but their attitude is going to get in the way.  And if they keep lying to me and evading the responsibilities of the job, we are going to have a serious problem.

3c) Is this person L?
XVI – The Tower.

Fuck. It is. Better strap myself in for a bumpy ride.

4a) How do I stop them from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Cups

I should create an environment of peace and serenity.  I should create an environment in my department that people want to come to because we’re always having a good time, yet we still work hard.  My coworkers shouldn’t come to work because it’s their job, they should come to work because they like the atmosphere.  I should create and strive to be someone that people can come to for just about anything, because I can put a smile on their face and make them feel good. I should be calm and relaxed.

4b) How can I stop L from taking advantage of me?
Ten of Swords

I can’t really.  I can’t force them to learn about life differently. But if once we have that air of peace and awesomeness, where we always have a good time, and they continues to be deceitful then that will be their downfall. They’ll try to get ahead by being cunning and hurtful, but it won’t get them anywhere.  They’ll question why others are moving forward with their careers and lives when they’ve actually gone backwards.  But they won’t do anything to fix their attitude, and that will be their end.

(I swear the Ten of Cups and the Ten of Swords in this situation say “kill her with kindness”.)

4c) (I forgot what I asked. I didn’t write it down. Maybe something along the lines of, “How can I create this environment of peace and serenity?”)
VII – The Chariot

Triumph over Obstacles. Focus. Establishing an Identity. Self-Confidence. Assuming Authority. “Drive with Unwavering Certainty.”

I need to truly accept my role of shift leader. Since I got it, it’s been a title and nothing more. I never really liked the responsibilities that came with it.  But, to get this great departmental vibe going, I need to wear that title with confidence. People need to see the shift leader before they see the worker.

Spread-A-Day: Day 13

Date: February 13th, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Created by: arcanemysteries

Day 13

The problem at present.
XVIII – The Moon – fear, anxiety, insecurities, the unknown

I don’t know what’s going to happen.  I really don’t.  This is one of those times where I wish I had more control over situations to come, but because I’m not the ring leader I’m anxious about what might happen.  I don’t have the schedule of day-to-day events in front of me.  With work, with family, when the month ends… I don’t like not knowing what’s ahead of me.

How this problem came to be.
Nine of Wands – courage, persistence, test of faith

I stood up for myself, over and over again.  I told him that what he thought of me was not who I really was.  I had the courage to tell my dad that I didn’t like the way I was being treated and now we’re having a family meeting because of that.  But I wouldn’t have it any other way.  To cower down when he spoke ill of me would have brought much more pain and confusion in the future.

What is the best possible solution.
Queen of Swords – organized, independent, perceptive

What fact I do have I need to know them well and I need to act on what I know.  No one can help me in this situation but myself.  I need to rely on my inner strength to help keep my head up.

What options or changes must I consider?
VII – The Chariot – control, assertion, will-power

When the day of the family meeting does come, I need to stand my ground (contrary to the picture in the card).  I need to take control of my situation; I need to have strength in my words.  Show my sisters that this is a much more serious position than they think.

The outcome.
IX – The Hermit – soul-searching, being alone

Like all the other cards that deal with the outcome of this family meeting, this one is also telling me that, at the end of the day, I will be alone.  Things will change drastically and I will need to deal with them by myself.