3CardMay: Day 6

day 6

Date: May 6th, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

How To Express Anger In A Healthy Way
IV – The Emperor – creating order out of chaos, strength, leadership

I need to not let my anger run rampant, but instead use that intense energy that fills my body and create something good from it. I can let my anger blind me and paralyze me or I can gather my strength and transform it into something I can use.

Benefits of This
II – The High Priestess – wisdom, knowledge, purity

Whenever I get angry and try to create a positive transformation, I will purge my system and be, in a way, cleansed. I will see things in a new light because of this and I will be able to learn more.

Hidden Traps
V – The Hierophant – conformity, tradition

Creating a positive thing out of my anger will not be easy and it will take a lot of practice. Fortunately, I don’t get angry easily or often, but when I do the emotion is all-encompassing and overwhelming. It does blind me and keep me in the current side of the situation by pure instinct.

3CardMay: Day 2

Date: May 2nd, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

To my deck:
What is my lesson for May?
II – The High Priestess

I thought it interesting that this card came in the first position for the first two readings, perhaps I didn’t shuffle well enough.  But The High Priestess is all about intuition, knowledge, higher powers (and some mystery). I’ve already had two bigger than average spiritual experiences this month… and it’s only the second day.  I think I need to listen to my inner voice more.

What do you need from me?
XX – Judgement

“Judgement tells you that you are close to reaching a significant state in your own journey.” “The voice of destiny summons you onward.” I know I’m close to finding something.  I can totally feel it. It’s either just out of my reach, not yet time for me to know it, or I know it but don’t recognize it. It’s with my studying and learning from The High Priestess that I’ll grasp it.

Outcome
6 of Swords

If I keep my nose to the books and listen to my intuition more, I’ll be able to take everything to the “next level” regarding my life and my spirituality. I will have passed this portion of the test and go on to the next, all the while knowing what’s going on and bring with it a smooth transition.

3CardMay: Day 1

day 1

Date: May 1st, 2015
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot

What cleanses me?
II – The High Priestess

This card is all about spirituality to me. Wisdom, knowledge, learning, intuition. These are all things I know will help me to further my path.

Winter?
XVIII – The Moon

This past winter was a roller coaster of emotion, mostly dealing with my fears, my anxieties, and disorientation of what the heck was going on.

Summer?
8 of Pentacles

I know this card means hard work with a just outcome, and so I think about my work. “A call…a higher understanding.” This makes me think about the position that just opened up, where I’d taking care of the animals but being the one who actually administers the medications. Hmm…

Spread-A-Day: Day 6

Date: February 6, 2015
Deck:
Shadowscapes Tarot
Created By:
 golddintentions

Day 6

This card represents you in the present.
II – The High Priestess – knowledge, learning, intuition (Artemis, Isis)

I am a student in the ways of magic and paganism.  I read, I watch, I ask questions, I learn, I feel.  I am opening myself up.

Jumper Card that landed on the first card position
Four of Cups – self-absorption, one’s own concerns

The High Priestess is also tied to the Goddesses Artemis and Isis (hence the parenthesis).  I have been a follower of Artemis for a little bit now, and while I know Isis has been trying to get my attention, I’ve yet to meet her.  These past couple of days Artemis has been doing everything to let me know I need to visit.  Which is true, I haven’t meditated in a couple of weeks and have been focused on my own needs. Not necessarily a bad thing, but I also haven’t incorporated them into anything I’ve done, either.

Something that is currently draining or replenishing you.
Knight of Wands – energy, passion, adventure

My love of life.  I go into a new found project with a single minded purpose that includes a very annoying amount of energy, because I’m so excited to do it!  I love traveling and exploring new places. I love seeing what’s ahead of me, what’s around the river bend. =D  Mom and I are planning a trip in July to one of my favorite places and road trips are one of my favorite things.  I also love just being with friends and whatever may come of us being together.

Something upcoming to be aware of.
Ten of Wands – misfortune, circumstances beyond human control

I look at this card I think that the birds are pick at her as they fly by her.  This situation with my family feels the same way: I feel they are picking on me, and there’s nothing I can really do until we have this meeting.  And then hopefully everything will fall into whatever place they end up.

Something that you should focus on to help you move forward.
Five of Swords – conflict, tension, loss, defeat

I’m not going to win when it comes to trying to get my sisters to see my side of the story.  I feel the order of the keywords is what’s going to happen.  We will butt heads; the conversation will continue but not without that thick odor of tension; I will realize that there is no hope of them understanding; then I will feel defeated because will be right back to where we started, only this time with our emotions having gone through the wringer.

Date: December 28th, 2014
Deck: Black Cat Tarot
Spread: Wheel of Your Year (slightly modified to add three crossings, cards 19/20 from this spread)

1) Significator. This card represents you as you go into the new year.11-xi-justice

XI – Justice – fairness, truth, law

As I go into the New Year, I am hanging onto what is right and what is wrong, especially what happened during the month of December. I had two talks with two different people and they both were about, to some degree, what I thought was right and what I thought was wrong; about what I did because I wanted to be right, but my actions were wrong; about what I know to be the truth and what form justice should take.

2) January.

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4 of Swords – contemplation, recuperation, rest

I need to stop whatever I’ve been fighting and just relax. The first month should be about me recuperating my mind and emotions. I don’t need to fight-fight-fight all the time, that will just wear me down. I need to stop and get myself together because the battle is not done. I’ve got work to do.

3) February.

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5 of Cups – loss, disappointment, bereavement

I think this is going to be a hard month for me. I have a feeling that I’ll still be battling whatever I’m going through, but I will also have losses that have to do with a father-like figure and someone I regard as a sister. Because in the image I had, they felt like family but were not blood related. They have a sad smile on their faces, turn away from me, and walk towards a bright light. Cliche, I know, but that’s what I saw. And I will be left watching them go.

4) March.

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XII – The Hanged Man – suspension, letting go, sacrifice

I will need to make a significant decision about what happened in the background of February, but I need to hold off until the time is right so that the decision I make can turn into a better outcome. This card may be telling me that I need to sacrifice something close to me to help make the outcome better.

5) April.

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Page of Pentacles – manifestation, financial opportunity, new job

I think the events of the past three months have quieted and died down (aka the fighting is over and we’re all licking our wounds), so now is the time to act on all of those ideas I’ve got running around in my head! With enthusiasm and desire, I can venture into a new hobby or a business venture. Learning, gaining knowledge, attaining wisdom and new skills are what I should be focusing on.

6) May.

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, subconscious mind

I feel this month has much to do with my spirituality. The High Priestess represents Artemis but I do not think she will be the main focus here. She will be by my side helping, definitely, but my sight is on something else. If I take the time to pursue what I want, I will get it. Whatever spiritually “it” is.

7) June.

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Knight of Wands – energy, passion, lust, adventure

This is the month for me to go-go-go! Lots of running around, I feel, being productive toward a physical goal. Taking those leaps and bounds; keep my eyes on the prize.

8) July.

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8 of Wands – speed, action, air travel

The energy and movement from June carries over into July as what I’m working toward is now turing into a real thing that I can touch. Something physical. I know I have some travel plans for July, hopefully they come true!

9) August.

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Queen of Swords – quick thinker, organized, perceptive, independent

Now that what I’ve been building has been made into something I can touch and see and feel, it’s time to get the details together about it. And I need to do it quick. This is the month for me to use my brain instead of my heart.

10) September.

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6 of Wands – public recognition, progress, (victory)

In June and July, I’m running around trying to get this thing into existence. In August, it will be made with the i’s dotted and the t’s crossed. And in September, whatever it is, is going to get the spotlight. I feel I may be attributed to that recognition, but I will be seen as the “man behind the curtain” (hence ‘victory’ is in parenthesis). The real focus will be on the object/idea.

11) October.

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7 of Cups – fantasy, illusion, wishful thinking

Options. I’m going to be given options, a lot of them. And my imagination is going to go into overdrive as I think about each one and what they could all positively bring. I can’t have it all so I need to be clear about what I want exactly and then make informed decisions. It may be that taking the second rate option will turn out to be far better than grabbing onto the first rate opportunity.

12) November.

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6 of Cups – reunion, nostalgia, memories

I feel this card is dealing with my sister or the sister-like relationship from February. We will reconcile and talk about “the good ole days.” Understanding and hugging will happen.

13) December.

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8 of Swords – isolation, self-imposed restriction

This is me ‘punishing’ myself for something. This has nothing to do with any influences from friends or family. This is all me. It may be an action I did that, while it wasn’t the wrong thing to do, I felt that it was terrible, and so I’m locking myself in my room, feeling bad about whatever happened. When in all reality, it’s just me looking at myself too harshly, as everyone else is fine with what I did or don’t even care. Inside my room, I am brooding. Outside my room, no one gives a second thought about it. They just want me to come out and join them.

14) Crossing 1. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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Ace of Cups – love, compassion, overwhelming emotion

I will be giving so much love this year and in return people will be drowning me with their love and compassion. When I say drown, I mean, holy crap, you guys better stop or I’m going to cry. I probably will cry from happiness at least once this year.

15) Crossing 2. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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8 of Cups – escapism, abandonment, withdrawal

I don’t like the keywords. The card tells me that while I may be content with what I have, I want to see what’s beyond the comfort of my home. My little white book says, “Departure. Even in the most stable and comfortable situations there may always be a woodworm of restlessness that obliges us to set out on our travels.” I have a feeling that I’m going to get that itch to travel, to roam, to explore what’s beyond my backdoor. Only question is… will I do it? Will I pack up and go? If I do, will it be temporary, just a quick trip, or am I settling down somewhere? I get the feeling that wherever I go, it’s going to be far. I just don’t know the longevity.

16) Crossing 3. Over-arching challenges, situations, or influences that will be crossing my path, for better or worse.

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VI – The Lovers – love, union, values alignment

I don’t think I’ll be getting into a romantic relationship this year, so far as the cards are telling me, but whomever I do have any kind of relationship with (parent, sibling, friend, etc), we will be growing closer this year. I feel this has to do with friends at work. We will be in sync; unstoppable. But who knows, with Ace of Cups and The Lovers as two of my crossings for next year, maybe I will begin a relationship.

January-February-March: These first three months are going to be hard and I will have to be careful about what I say and do. Contemplation is needed, especially in March. I see the cards, in this order, as a fall-winter-spring metaphoric progression.

April: A new venture or new activity… this may have something to do with what will be starting in June.

May: Much spirituality! Very magic! (Aaaaand Artemis just whacked me over the head because I made that joke.)

June-July-August-September: Busy busy busy! I will see this thing from when it was just a baby thought all the way to presenting itself out into the world. This is going to be interesting. Also, there is a crap ton of positivity and productivity oozing from June and July. Jus’ sayin’.

October-November-December: I dream of better things; I remember better things; I lock myself away because the thing I did was not better. I can see the cards, in order, as a kind of night-dawn-day when looking at the colors.

Majors: 4/16
Cups: 5/16
Swords: 3/16
Wands: 3/16
Pentacles: 1/16

Deity Identification Spread

Date: December 14th, 2014
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Spread From: hellboundwitch

I have already been in contact with my deity, Artemis, a few times. When I told her that I wanted to ask her a few questions through the cards, she was amused. I did the spread on the floor of my bedroom, and at first Artemis was sitting next to me. But once I changed decks, because the first deck just wasn’t cutting it (aha! I’m so punny.), she then sat on the edge of my bed in contemplation. After going through the cards that were dealt, I realized that she was giving me advice for a situation that is currently on-going in my life and has given me terrible amounts of stress for a few years. This situation will be resolved, one way or another, within the week, and Artemis was trying to help me get through it.

1) Who is this deity?

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3 of Cups (reversed) – three’s a crowd

From what I know of Artemis, and from what I’ve learned from watching her, she likes to venture out on her own. She’s not one for big groups, or even groups over two. She likes to work one on one. I see this card also as a loose meaning of virginity, as she is protector of maidens and is a virgin herself.

2) What will our relationship be like?

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9 of Cups – comfort, happiness

Our relationship is going to be one of satisfaction. I feel that she is going to be right there by my side helping me through my issues and the end result will be all the more sweet because I know I’ll always have someone to back me up.

3) What do you want from me?

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Queen of Swords (reversed) – overly-emotional

There is a situation going on in my personal life that has spilled over into the wider circle of my family life and it is driving my emotions through the wringer. Artemis wants me to basically stop being so emotional. To think more with my head, not my heart, as my heart is getting me into all sorts of trouble. One of the keywords for this card I’ve seen is “bitchy,” while Artemis doesn’t want me to be exactly that, she does want me to check my emotions at the door.

4) How can I best make this happen?

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7 of Pentacles (reversed) – limited success or reward

She wants me to stop investing so much time and energy into this shitty situation because I knew before this all happened that if I were to finally give an answer, then I would get nothing in return. I’ve been wanting to back out of this situation for a long time now, and yet, I keep sticking my nose where I know it won’t do me any good. Artemis wants to me to quit before serious shots are fired.

5) What may get in my way?

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6 of Cups (reversed) – stuck in the past

I know I’m stuck on the linear progression of how this shitty situation has come to be in the present. I’m going to be, and am already, obsessive about where it started, what came next, and how it has come to this.

6) Outcome of the relationship.

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II – High Priestess (reversed) – listen to my inner voice

The High Priestess (reversed) tells me that I need to step away from the mundane, earthly things and listen to my intuition has to say, and ultimately, what Artemis has to say (as the High Priestess (upright) represents her). When I get too caught up in the day to day tasks and not enough on the spiritual or other-wordly, I need to sit down and just listen to the quiet. Re-align myself with my higher purpose. Calm down. Stop being so grounded and try to be more other-worldly.

Spread-A-Day: Day 2

I didn’t participate in the Spread-A-Day Challenge (though if they do something like this again, I probably will), but I saved the prompts. So you’ll see me do Spread-A-Day posts even if it is long past.

What is blocking my creativity?

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XIX – The Sun (reversed) – temporary depression, lack of success

If this is about the failed relationship from earlier this year, which I would have to say it is because this was also the card I pulled when I did a reading on what happened in the end, then yes.  We work in the same company, though not necessarily the same department (unless I go to their department), so I’ve had to put on a game face whenever I have to work in her area.  When we broke up, of which I was completely against because it was out of the blue, it did honestly feel like the sun had gone away.  I was the saddest I’d ever been in my life.  It was hard and it still feels like the sun isn’t totally out yet.

I pulled a clarifier card just to see, and I got XI – Justice (reversed).

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Which is another card from the reading I did for our relationship.  I felt it totally unfair that this person, whom I thought was as happy as I was in our relationship, would do this.  I felt that this person shouldn’t put all the supposed blame on me when I didn’t even know what was going on.  I was angry and wanted this person to take accountability for their actions.

Yeah, so this tells me that this first position is about how the break up from early June is affecting me creatively.

How can I overcome this obstacle?

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5 of Cups (reversed) – moving on, acceptance, forgiveness

I thought I wasn’t as hung up about the break up as these cards are telling me.  For me to push past this situation that has clearly clouded my view of what is in front of me, I need to accept that it happened, accept that this person actually had the guts to tell me what they told me as a reason to break up.  I need to forgive this person for the heartache they caused me from that day and from all the heartache from the few conversations we’ve had since, which have only caused me pain.  I need to move on from this.

What is the first step I need to regain control?

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II – The High Priestess – intuition, higher powers, mystery

Oh boy, does this card tell me a lot! First of all, I can get my creativity back with my spirituality.  Enhance my intuition; reach out to the higher powers or deities, and keep that child-like attitude when learning about the unknown.  Also, there is pressure on my third eye at the moment, so I’m doing something right.

“The High Priestess is also known as Persephone, Isis, the Corn Maiden and Artemis.”

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Artemis, you keep showing up!  Fine!  I’ll talk to someone about you!  And Isis, you’re pulling on my attention, too.  I guess I’ve got some more research to do.

“She represents spiritual enlightenment and inner illumination, divine knowledge and wisdom. She has a deep, intuitive understanding of the Universe and uses this knowledge to teach rather than to try to control others.”  “The High Priestess is a very spiritual card.” Yes, I need to keep studying spirituality and what I know.  I need to keep in contact with the Universe during my meditations.

“She is tied to the moon, to femininity, and to inspiration.”  I love the moon.  I really do.  I am so much a child of the moon. (there’s even a moon on the card!)  I’ve been told by the cards that I need to get in touch with my more feminine side, and I guess, somewhere down the road, start teaching or giving advice about tarot, whatever deities I follow, or just spirituality in general.

“On the plus side, you will find that your intuitive powers are increasing and you may be inspired to be creative.”  Well, would you look at that.  I will get my creativity back if I just keep at it with my spiritual studies.