Date: February 12, 2015
Deck: Black Cats Tarot
Created by: ragabashwitch
What is preventing me from winning?
XIII – Death – change, transformation, transition
I am scared of how the family dynamic will be after the 28th of this month. But this family meeting is something that must happen and I’m afraid of what the outcome will be at the end of the day.
How can I get to first place?
Queen of Wands – warmth, vibrancy, determination
I can’t point fingers, I need to include everyone when speaking, not just about my dad and I. I need to show my sisters what it’s been like for me without sounding like I’m whining or placing blame. I feel that it is through this approach that I can effect what winning will be like.
What will winning be like?
Nine of Swords – solitude, anxiety, despair
Damn. Every time my cards show me something has to do with the outcome of the family meeting, it does not show me something good. This card is telling me that while I may say all the right things and give all the right examples, in the end I will be left standing by myself. My sisters will have the knowledge of what I said and went through, hopefully to their understanding, but that won’t make them support me in my decision. And so I’ll be on my own, left to deal with the repercussions by myself.
Interesting fact #1: Before I shuffled the deck, I looked at the bottom card, just ‘cus I was curious. And it was VIII – Death. I only shuffled three times and it became the top card. Say what?!
Interesting fact #2: I looked at the shadow card when I was at the end of the spread and it was the Ace of Pentacles. So, okay, when everything is all said and done, I’ll be able to pursue just about anything without having to look over my shoulder. There’s… some hope.